Faults, Follies, and Being Big-nosed and French

I've realized recently that there are many things that I want for the world, or at least the part of it that I'll ever come in contact with, and not terribly many things I want for myself.

One of my favorite literary characters is Cyrano Savinien Hercule de Bergerac. One reason I've always like Cyrano is that I can relate to him. For him it was his huge nose, but it's different for me. However, I am very similar to Cyrano in many ways. One Cyrano quote from the play that I know I've said before with different words is, "I for your joy would gladly lay mine own down, - e'en though you never were to know it, - Never! - If but at times I might - far off and lonely, - hear some gay echo of the joy I bought you."

That's what I mean about wanting things for the world, and not so much for myself. I want those around me to be happy, or if not happy than be in pursuit of becoming the person they are supposed to be so they can be happy then. I have at times in the past set down my own happiness to help others be happy, in so much as I've done things that complicate my life to simplify the lives of those around me. The strange thing is that I honestly don't think I know how to do things any differently. I'm not sure why I do things like that. Is it the way I was raised, the way I'm wired (so to speak), is this part of my nature, or something I've learned? Not having an answer to that question I simply accept that this is what I do.

One thing I've been thinking a lot about recently is what my purpose is here. How am I supposed to live my life? What legacy am I supposed to leave? Am I supposed to be an engineer, a pastor, an actor, or something completely different?

I want so many positive things for the world. Now I just need to figure out how I can best bring those things into reality.